Jodie Means Grace of God: Day 56 I Hated the world

My Face may be different, but my feelings the same
I laugh and I cry, and I take pride in my gains
I was sent here among you, to teach you to love
As God in the heavens, looks down from above
To Him I am no different, His love know no bounds
Its those here among you, in cities and towns
That judge me by standards that man has imparted
But this family I have chosen will help me get started
For I'm one of the children, so special and few
That came here to learn the same lessons as you
That love is acceptance it must come from the heart
We all have the same purpose, though not the same start
The Lord gave me life, to live and embrace
And I'll do it as you do but at my own pace

Wednesday, November 11, 2009

Day 56 I Hated the world

Boy was my faith tested this day..... I didn't even want to go to NICU, if one more nurse would mention RTS I would crack! I stopped praying, yes me the big christian. I took my Bible and threw it in the cupboard... God has left me. I told my husband that I dont want to pray with him anymore... That didnt go off too well.. My mom even sent me a text message saying "I Love you" and I replied, "Love wont heal my baby". After hours of a one way discussion with my hubby to get me back on track and me just staring at the wall, he said " Vickie, in the 34 years of your life has anything bad happened to you? God has protected you for 34 years and now when something comes your way that is difficult you forsake HIM. I felt horrible, what am I going to do....